Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Christmas nostaglic thoughts

Reflecting on memories of Christmas past today. I just got a sudden wave of nostaglic feelings as I dressed my baby in his Santa suit determined to make his first Christmas complete with a picture with Santa Claus which by the way didn't happen due to a ridiculous long line to which was already cut off :( side note: I shall attempt again tomorrow!
My Christmases growing up were happy ones because that was the only time my parents didn't fight. Now that i'm older and wiser I think it was because they were too busy combining forces to make our Christmas wishes come true that they didn't have time to fight or argue.
I always got EXACTLY what I wanted and I never gave it any thought to how hard my parents worked to fulfill this for my brother and me. I guess I felt entitled or in other words just plain spoiled. I am ashamed to admit that I had this mentality all the way through college. It wasn't until my father passed away at the young age of 50 about 5 years ago in Feburary that I realized how much I appreciated and loved my father for spoiling me not just on Christmas but throughout my life.
Now that I have a child of my own I realize it's not easy balancing what you can do to provide for your child and what you want to provide. I think I'm already inclined to spoiling him but I'd rather get my beautiful boy whatever he wants before I eye myself a new designer bag- the sacrifices come natural once you become a parent I suppose.




*Random Christmas Memory: Me wrapping presents and writing calligraphy cards out for my father's business contacts. My artistic skills came I
handy and my father was always so proud at how nice my calligraphy was and we would drink coffee afterwards. My mom always praised my gift wrapping skills.


-- Post From My iPhone

5 comments:

franksabunch said...

My father was the same. I remember writing about it a long time ago (on xanga...who remembers that site anymore! ha!). He always gave us whatever we needed, and often what we wanted while he shopped in discount stores for himself.

It's why the Xmas tree was up until June and the Xmas lights 365 days/year. When it comes to family, every day is Christmas. Dylan is lucky to have a mommy that realizes that, too. :) Merry Christmas! Blessings to you and your family!

Anonymous said...

It's been a while, but I'm thrilled to see you have produced that little bundle of joy.

Your boy is beautiful, be proud. I hope you are doing well.

- Nick

xoxo bunnie said...

thank you guys!!!

Unknown said...

Congrats. Long time no hear.

jen said...

omg your bayyyy beeeee boieee, very cute